Wednesday, May 16, 2007 / 11:09 AM
Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere
I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling
[Chorus]
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by
[Chorus]
Why do some fight and work so hard just to live, while others can just waste their lives away...
Wednesday, May 9, 2007 / 7:38 PM
"One will never know when it's their time to go, Unless it has already been planned."
It's the second i'm attending this year, both as unexpected. I never knew that within my poly years, I would lose so much. Of course, I know I have gained as well, but never in my wildest dreams would I know that things that actually meant something to me, would be lost so easily.
Heartache, grief and sorrow is what i'm feeling now, with wonder of why things like these happen. Words can never describe exactly how I feel.
But nevertheless, a mark has been etched deep into my mind, heart and soul. A mark that can never be rubbed away so easily just like erasing light pencil marks on paper.
Though I was not very close to you, I mourn for your absence. I feel lost, as all was unexpected. I have noticed the distance in your eyes, if only I had put my own self away and bothered more to care for you. If only I had asked, "How has your day been?", or even if it was a simple "Hello" and a smile.
But, "If only..." is all too late.
Rest in peace, My friend. You will always be in my thoughts, someone etched into my mind. You will never be forgotten.
Friday, May 4, 2007 / 9:55 AM
The human mind is always wrought with an array of emotions, sometimes it's just so tiring to think of them.
How I wish, for just one day, I can be a baby again, where there are no frustrations, no thoughts to think about.
Life does get you at times and at times like these, they wear you down.
I'm really not as tough as I may appear. I get EMO-fied. But I'd much rather keep to myself.
Probably, Hopefully, everything would be better tomorrow
